Kirsty’s Christmas Blog

 

Christmas

 

Sarah has given me the gift of Christmas.
One where I will not only be AF, but I won’t be a dry drunk. I completed the 6 week programme at the beginning of December 2017. Every Christmas I have said “things will be different next year” and this year they are. I cannot thank Sarah enough for that, and if they knew, neither could my boys, my husband, my parents and the rest of my family.

I cannot put my finger on what has worked for me. I think it may take some time to reflect on that. Obviously 6 weeks of no alcohol has given me immense clarity but I think the daily contact, knowing when it is all going wrong and I feel intensely overwhelmed, that Sarah is there to off load to, and respond in such an understanding, non-judgemental, but truthful and honest (my god she can be honest!!!) way, has supported me in a way words cannot describe.

The major changes I have come away with is the perspective of “drinking is something I used to do and I don’t do anymore, no big deal’. A behaviour that I obsessed over, was constantly trying to analyse, find answers to, excuse, change etc etc is now so trivial. I have managed 6 months AF before. The difference this time is that it barley occupies my thoughts. Before I still obsessed over it, my own and other peoples drinking. This time, others can do as they please and me, well, I can’t think of a reason I would want to drink.

At the beginning, I was sceptical and doubtful that Sarah’s programme would work for me. I did not think it was possible I would be at this point today. I had contacted her nearly two years ago but decided her programme was too expensive. The reality is, I spent twice the cost in booze over that time and how can you put a price on living, really living a well and fulfilled life.

Although alcohol may have drowned some tough feelings for me, it also made the good ones, the ones that we live for disappear too. I knew life was made harder by my drinking, but for some reason I couldn’t find the power to stop on my own. I lived in fear. Fear of carrying on, and fear of how life would be if I stopped. I couldn’t stop on my own, I had tried so many times and every time I failed it just intensified my feelings of worthlessness.

In reality, the world around me is a wonderful place. Tough at times, but then easy is pretty dull right!! I am now seeing the joy that is there. I know it is not possible to feel sprite fully joyous and happy all the time. It is the difficult feelings that come in-between I will continue to learn how to accept and manage better. Now I am well, I know that this and so many other things are possible.

Sarah must have had hundreds even thousands of clients, and somehow she has made me feel special.

If you are a women, who is miserable from drinking alcohol, have been sucked into this void that so many women have been victim of, I cannot urge you enough to contact Sarah. A wonderful life is within reach. I wish all who are reading this well on your journeys, it’s really not as tough as we think it’s going to be.

Kirsty’s Christmas Blog

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