On the final day of my six weeks of working with you, six weeks of being alcohol free, I spent my 50th birthday having the most wonderful time, laughing, chatting and enjoying myself as much as – no that’s not quite true – more than, I have done in years. Because on my 50th birthday I knew, for the first time in over 30 years, that I no longer wanted or needed alcohol to feel truly happy.
After spending over half my life depending daily on ever larger quantities of wine to get me through almost every aspect of my life, I never thought in a million years that I’d ever be able to achieve such a feat. I am so immensely grateful to you for helping me get there, every single step of the way. From the first, faltering, frightened, doubt-filled days, to today, a new alcohol free me, in control of my actions, decisions and thoughts. No more desperate worries about my life spiralling out of control, bleak hopelessness and deep self-hatred, instead a huge sense of energy, pride, self-worth, and optimism for my future, as a mother, a friend, a colleague and a person. I am no longer just existing, I am living again.
You have been an inspiration and a rock, and I hope that I will carry with me the strength and the clear-sightedness that you have given me for the rest of my life. All of those wonderful things that I now see that alcohol took away from me, you have helped me regain.
Your insights, deep understanding, knowledge, advice, empathy and support have buoyed me through the tough times, and have encouraged and inspired me to believe in myself, forgive myself, and like myself again, for the first time in many long years.
You have given me my life back, Sarah, and the pride and positivity that I feel is immeasurable.
You are a remarkable and wonderful person, and I feel so immensely lucky that I’ve had the incredible good luck to have had your presence in my life.
You have my deepest gratitude always.